I sick of my jobs, is title of this story. Why I am here? My education, my certification can push me further but I wonder why I still stuck here with the management team that not understand what I do? The education system not really made people understand how to work. Time for me to move on I looking for all kind of opportunity. Offer me if you can
As technological man I like to put my life on internet but no one care about what happen…my question is I spend money for?
My question is as elder brother I was growth up with the word sharing. I have to learn whatever thing have to share. I wonder what’s the first thing un my life that can I be an owner and no need to share. I will take the rest of my life to find this answer but I guess I can’t find cause share is common word for everything. Only I can do is learn how to positive with every share that will come or already in my life. Just hope this new me can survive for how long?
I was traveling to Kuala Lumpur with my Boy friend to meet his other boy friend. What’s ever thing that happen in that city made me know that my boyfriend put my heart somewhere but not with him…I don’t know why he not let me move on just easy word…”Go Away from my life”.
I will do that immediately don’t hold me with him like this. I’m not strong enough to move on by myself because my heart not with me…
He came back to Singapore first thing he SMS him online and let me alone…cold…as it was in KL
Today I read something that you write for your dear that’s not me … It’s not me… Give me sometime sir I will leave you alone as you want he will only one for you he will … I will not cry I will not drunk I will not smoke… My time is not much left I will ensure you will not suffer anything after I leave you. I still keep my promise. I still …
But I know my body will not … After the blood from vormit blood on pillow blood in toilet I know my condition gone worst and no dibetics people in this world blood sugar drop after meal … But I am. If I have glypo again let me dow… Please let me down… That will make you with him … You still have 2 but I just be some where that see you far far away… Tell my mom that I was naugthy and don’t take care myself … She will understand.. Last thing don’t send me back to Thailand just give me with you this is a last wish….I can’t leave 2 I need one but it is too late it is too late. I saw you and him very happy I also happy that why I choose to leave with my condition. It is my condition.
This morning I got hypogrysemia or the metod to tell you that your blood sugar very low and vormit with the blood … I know the reason behind that but I’m not able to control my emotion. It’s up and down for a few week. All of this thing happen because of myself that not take care …. Enough … I prepare to die… It’s not easy like my title I have this condition 4 yrs ago in Kuala lumpur. That’s time I alone. I have diareah and start with high blood sugar and low blood sugar continue like this. I was bring myself to office and thanks to p’ woody and p’keaw that sent me to hospital. That’s why I keep promise to myself that if I have any chances that I can pay back this life, I will not slow or think again.
This time I have one guy beside me but I only can make him worry. I should let him have more happy but I’m not able to do so. My mounth keep say yes but my body keep say no.
Not just no my body know the condition well and asked me which one I want to choose. …. I love him … I will not choose … I will not at all … If body win, I still keep my promise. If I win he will be with me, nothing or no onecan bring us anyway. It’s easy way to die…just let it choose.